Sooo . Im sure most people's first posts are about that . It being their first post . But . Not me . There's WAYYY more important things to write(type) about than how this is my first post . And . Im sure that after reading the title . You are FULLY aware that it is my first post . Therefore . No need to write a whole post about it being my first post . (Hahahaha ! If you didnt get it before , You do now !)
So . For the realllll stuff ...
Sometimes . You get tired of trying .
Sometimes . You get tired of holding on .
Sometimes . You get tired of being the only one making an effort , the only one that cares .
Sometimes . You get tired of knowing youre the only one that cares enough to try .
Sometimes . You get tired of having to convince people of what they already know .
Sometimes . You get tired of being the better person .
Sometimes . You get tired of feeling so alone .
You are my best friend . I can honestly say i love you . And i know you told me you always push people away . And i promised that i would hold on , even when you tried that on me , until you said the words "I dont want you here anymore."
But sometimes i regret that promise . Sometimes i wish i could be like everyone else i know , and just forget about whatever is broken , and find something new to play with .
But i also know id miss you too much . Not the you you show other people , but the you that you show to me and those people youre REALLY close to . The you that is who you are.
Ive been trying to let her shine through , you know . To make her the only you there is . But sometimes, when the other you comes around , i forget about her , and wish i could just be done .
I just wish you could see you how i see you . As you .
I wish you could see how amazing you are , and how much i love you .
I know if you saw it , you wouldnt even come CLOSE to caring about the things that you do now ...
So . I just have to be your new mirror . And find a way to show you to you ...
- Sincerely , ME .
